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This is mainly added for a nostalgia. It was the first truly depraved book I read, containing necrophilia and cannibalism. I adore the prose and the descriptions are visceral. It's set in the USA during the AIDs crisis. A cannibal and a necrophiliac, both whom are serial killers, go after the same victim. The biggest woe is the fetishization of asian people. "Exotic rice paddies" my ASS. However, if you can survive that, which is definitely a product of its time, then it's smooth sailing. It has a slow start, but when it picks up it picks UP.

OH BOY. If you're looking for a 30 something year old womanfailure alcoholic that self harms and has a toxic relationship with her mother and 13 year old half sister then you're at the right place! I had to put the book down a couple times because it was so unnerving. And I like to think of myself as someone with a strong tolerance! The protagonist kisses her sister at some point to transmit ecstasy and let me tell you - that was INSANE. It's a mystery at its core, but what truly made the book alive were the protagonist's relationships. So juicy! The prose itself is simple, but it has a wicked way of formatting words that leads to an immersive experience.

An art vandalist kidnaps an art conservator and develops Lima Syndrome.... How romantic! There's also a delicious layer of ableism, as the art conservator is autistic with myasthenia gravis, and homophobia, because the art vandalist is simply an asshole. There's forced drug use and two rape scenes. Serious Weakness made me realize that I need to get FREAKIER! It's genuinely inspirational to me. I hope to one day write something as intense!

4.48 Psychosis is Sarah Kane's final work before her suicide. It depicts a very intimate relationship with depression. The prose is gorgeous and I am enamored with how it deviates from the standard play format to tell its story. I usually read it when I'm struggling mentally because it helps me feel less alone in having a fucked up brain. It's overall very cathartic for me. However, you MUST be in the right headspace to read it. I cannot emphasize that enough.

The game deserved better than what was done to it, but none the less, I cried at the end! Which is typical of Final Fantasy games because they're balls deep in tragedy. The appeal of this game are the interactions between the main four. Their bond is very heart warming and if you have shipper goggles, a delicious feast. The combat style is my favorite: hack and slash! The game's biggest fault is that it was half finished rushed job. Some DLCs never came to fruition, but the available DLCs enhance the story a lot. I don't like DLC culture, but this game deserves the exception because of how ESSENTIAL the DLCs are. If you're in the mood to cry over almost-yaoi, then PLEASE play this game!

I first played this game in about 2013/2014 and it crushed me to an astounding degree. It was the first non-Metal Gear Solid game to make me cry. You play as an entity known as "The Batter", whose goal is to purify the realm. But what does "purify" entail? It's turn based, which made me snooze a bit, and the puzzles made me think quite a bit because they're a pain, but the emotional output this game provided was insane. I mainly add it to this list for nostalgia, but it definitely has its merit.

Death Game is one of my favorite genres. Puzzle games are not. YTTD is both, so my experience was watching playthroughs. However, I was still immersed in the setting and characters. The strongest point of this game, in my opnion, is the character development. Q-taro is probably the one with the biggest growth. I didn't think much of him at first, but after a point, he had my heart. Same goes with several other characters I was intially sketpical of. The entire game isn't released yet, but what's out so far is really delicious and hits the angst button PERFECTLY.

ORV is the first webnovel that I read. It set the bar incredibly high, so I haven't explored much else within the genre, but holy shit. Normally, my brain rot lasts about a month but ORV's brainrot has lasted for over half a year, which is a new record for me. It has every trope under the sun and deconstructs them. Despite all the powerscaling, ORV is, at its core, a love letter to readers. I can't say much else without spoilers, but I definitely wasn't prepared for the emotional investment nor anguish. But most of all, I didn't expect the catharsis.

Another death game! This one is THE classic! It's very exciting and action packed. Some parts made my stomach churn, and this isn't regarding the violence. Which isn't that bad in my opinion. Discussing the scene that made me queasy would be spoilers, so if you check it out, be sure to fortify your heart! The music is awesome and Quentin Tarantino pays homage by including one of the classical songs used in "Inglorious Basterds." The movie itself doesn't reveal much backstory about the primary antagonist, but in its defense it's hard to cram a massive book ina measly 2 hours. However, it does well with what it has. The book is infinitely more detailed. I still need to reread it because I last read it in 2010 (it is now 2023). Still, the movie has a lot of merit.

I can't reveal much without major spoilers. I went into it blind so you should as well! But it's a solid 12/10 show. :)